I am so so soo happy that this semester is finally over. Don't ask me how my finals went. I even missed my French finals because I thought that there was no point going if I was going to get everything wrong. So yeap, that's a big fat 'F' for me.
This semester was hell for me. No, this whole year was hell. I just feel really really empty. I don't feel like I'm learning anything in college, it just feels like I'm wasting time. All people want is just to become Samsung and LG employees and they're all making me to believe that that's where you need to be after graduation. We learnt how to knock on the door at job interviews, how to sit in front of the interviewer, what to wear, how to bow, what to say and stuff. That was what my elective was all about this semester! And we are talking about what people call the best foreign studies (languages and area studies) institute in Korea.
Whenever I tell someone that I actually really enjoy what I study and that I want to continue my studies in graduate school, they just shake their heads and say "or maybe you're just running away". I don't understand why so many people here think that going to a graduate school is like 'running away'. Even if you think of it as a plan E (Plan F is committing suicide and Plan G is being an unemployed), that's not what you say to someone who actually thinks of it as a plan A!
Deeeep sigh.
But you know what, this world isn't customized for me.
I think I spent more time hating school, hating people and hating myself during the exam period than I did on my studies.
I'm going to make sure that this post is going to be my last rant on this subject.
Speaking and thinking so negatively all the time is such a stupid thing to do.. Next year, I'll just find better electives, try different internships and see what I enjoy more and I'll stop hating everything!
And I'll also fix my French grades..
