- Les Miserables
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Okay this list makes Les Miserables look very miserable. But yeah, short review of it here: LES MISERABLES WAS AWESOMEEEEEEEEEE
MUST WRITE REVIEWS
- Les Miserables
- NEW CAMEERRRRRRRRAAAAAA
- NEW LAPTOPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPP
- SUPER AWESOME B.B.CREAM FROM NATURE REPUBLIC!
Okay this list makes Les Miserables look very miserable. But yeah, short review of it here: LES MISERABLES WAS AWESOMEEEEEEEEEE
2013 diary
2013 is now a very special number to me. In Korea, you're given a number when you enter university. It's kind of like class of *insert year here* but instead of the year of graduation it's the opposite.
13 is one of my favourite numbers so I'm happy with my class number, 13.
And since 2013 is going to be a very busy year for me, I decided to buy a really pretty scheduler! I need to promise myself that I'll never ever lose it or stop writing in it. Hahahaha.
I bought it online a few days ago and it arrived yesterday. It's so pretty!
13 is one of my favourite numbers so I'm happy with my class number, 13.
And since 2013 is going to be a very busy year for me, I decided to buy a really pretty scheduler! I need to promise myself that I'll never ever lose it or stop writing in it. Hahahaha.
I bought it online a few days ago and it arrived yesterday. It's so pretty!
The one on the left is 'Alice in Wonderland' first edition and the one on the right is the diary. I bought this one!
I want a new camera
EVERYTHING IS CALLED SMART SOMETHING NOWADAYS!
Did you guys know that a smart camera exists?
I didn't know until today, I wanted a LUMIX camera so I went to the nearest camera place and looked for one. The sales assistant who's working there asked "Who buys LUMIX/Panasonic cameras nowadays?" -.-
She recommended me the Samsung smart cameras and I'm in love with them! There's this WiFi thing where you can directly upload the photos you took on your facebook or whatever. You can send it to your phone and save them on your PC without the USB cable.
So I'm having a hard time trying to decide between NX1000 and WB150F
NX1000
They have one in pink as well!
Ah! It's so pretty!
WB150F
I don't know which to get! I think the first one is prettier but the second one is cheaper, it's too cheap actually. I might get the second one actually! But I love the accessories that come with the first one! Ah, the dilemma.
Help me decide?
PACKED
I kind of miss boredom now.
I got a part-time job at The Faceshop, it's a really good cosmetics brand and they don't usually hire girls my age. My friends are all dying to work at shops like this and I did too! And it's fun, but two weeks of training is killing me. I had to go there every single day for two weeks and read everything about everything. On top of that I had to and still need to study different skin types and know all these stupid chemicals and ingredients (for every product and there are so many skin care products at THEFACESHOP it's crazy). My major is now officially cosmetics! I swear I even made notes and stuff, and they made me read a book on not just about THEFACESHOP stuff but about being a good sales assistant, about crossing the chasm! And my manager is super STRICT!
At first I was searching for internships at academies and translating work and all but I gave up on searching and calling and e-mailing because they never replied! But yeah, I agree with them I wouldn't want a high school student to work for me if I were them as well.
BUT! I got a job! Yeah another job besides testing different eyeliners and face mists. Well it was my friend's job but she found this person to tutor so she declined and introduced me! It starts in December, and I'm going to TA for this English teacher, he's from the States and yeap. Will be doing simple things like printing, spelling checks, marking, and even cleaning or getting coffee, sending out text messages to parents (this is going to be fun) and etc etc. Having a meeting with the head teacher tomorrow, we're going to discuss my pay! I don't know how much I should call, she told me to think about it...maybe it'd be easier if she just told me how much she'd like to pay me...yeah that would be so much better. My friends AND my mum's friends are saying \10,000 per hour is perfect but I think that's too much. I don't know but I'm happy! Yay!
So in December, I will be working everyday! On weekdays I'm going to be TA-ing and on the weekends I'm going to be selling make-up and skin care products! I'm dying already so I don't know how I'll be able to cope with things in December. KSAT is over so everyone's having dinners and going karaokes (it's Korea), there are too many that some of them actually clash so I have to CHOOSE. It's not about deciding whether to go or not, it's about deciding which. GLAD reunion is this Saturday and I might not be able to make it because of cosmetics! This is just sad.
My school also decided to do the register at Lotte World so I had to take the bus with my friends to get there. Of course we didn't want to ride roller coasters in this weather with seniors from 30 other high schools so we just went straight back home and played Wii. It's better than waiting for hours to ride one roller coaster. And I was supposed to go to training at THEFACESHOP today as well but I decided to lie (I felt bad) and say that I was sick because I was SO tired! I slept at 6PM today because I was so sleepy and tired.I I swear I was getting less and less sleep each day, and school ends at freaking 12PM now. That's like four hours earlier than usual and I can't even take a nap!
Tomorrow, my school is forcing every senior student to watch a movie at like 8AM in the morning, so I need to go to Lotte Cinema by 7:40AM, that's in three hours. Yesterday they forced us to go all the way to Daehak-ro to watch this boring musical, I don't know why they think they're so cool for arranging things like this for us. Anyway, I'm watching Breaking Dawn part 2 because that's the only movie I haven't watched. After that I am going to karaoke with my friends and AFTER that I have to go to the academy to discuss my pay and my job and after thaaaaaaaaaaaat I need to go for training and I need to look like I'm sick. And somewhere in between I need to have lunch and dinner. THEN I'M FREE! My friend actually invited me to her open house party but I can't make it anymore, I have no place to squeeze that in.
This is a huge confession but sometimes I'm too tired to even erase my make-up. It's so gross, and I slept without taking my contact lens off a couple of times already.
Oh and two days ago, I dyed my hair to dark brown and I got light brown highlights, it looks awesome, so I'm happy. My friend forced me to dye it while she got hers permed so that she won't have to be alone and I'm really glad she did. Getting mine permed too in two weeks!
Congrats to those who got offers! There are lots of smarties in KL, oh and there's one in Indonesia too, Min Ji got offers from Durham and Warwick! So happy for her.
I got a part-time job at The Faceshop, it's a really good cosmetics brand and they don't usually hire girls my age. My friends are all dying to work at shops like this and I did too! And it's fun, but two weeks of training is killing me. I had to go there every single day for two weeks and read everything about everything. On top of that I had to and still need to study different skin types and know all these stupid chemicals and ingredients (for every product and there are so many skin care products at THEFACESHOP it's crazy). My major is now officially cosmetics! I swear I even made notes and stuff, and they made me read a book on not just about THEFACESHOP stuff but about being a good sales assistant, about crossing the chasm! And my manager is super STRICT!
At first I was searching for internships at academies and translating work and all but I gave up on searching and calling and e-mailing because they never replied! But yeah, I agree with them I wouldn't want a high school student to work for me if I were them as well.
BUT! I got a job! Yeah another job besides testing different eyeliners and face mists. Well it was my friend's job but she found this person to tutor so she declined and introduced me! It starts in December, and I'm going to TA for this English teacher, he's from the States and yeap. Will be doing simple things like printing, spelling checks, marking, and even cleaning or getting coffee, sending out text messages to parents (this is going to be fun) and etc etc. Having a meeting with the head teacher tomorrow, we're going to discuss my pay! I don't know how much I should call, she told me to think about it...maybe it'd be easier if she just told me how much she'd like to pay me...yeah that would be so much better. My friends AND my mum's friends are saying \10,000 per hour is perfect but I think that's too much. I don't know but I'm happy! Yay!
So in December, I will be working everyday! On weekdays I'm going to be TA-ing and on the weekends I'm going to be selling make-up and skin care products! I'm dying already so I don't know how I'll be able to cope with things in December. KSAT is over so everyone's having dinners and going karaokes (it's Korea), there are too many that some of them actually clash so I have to CHOOSE. It's not about deciding whether to go or not, it's about deciding which. GLAD reunion is this Saturday and I might not be able to make it because of cosmetics! This is just sad.
My school also decided to do the register at Lotte World so I had to take the bus with my friends to get there. Of course we didn't want to ride roller coasters in this weather with seniors from 30 other high schools so we just went straight back home and played Wii. It's better than waiting for hours to ride one roller coaster. And I was supposed to go to training at THEFACESHOP today as well but I decided to lie (I felt bad) and say that I was sick because I was SO tired! I slept at 6PM today because I was so sleepy and tired.I I swear I was getting less and less sleep each day, and school ends at freaking 12PM now. That's like four hours earlier than usual and I can't even take a nap!
Tomorrow, my school is forcing every senior student to watch a movie at like 8AM in the morning, so I need to go to Lotte Cinema by 7:40AM, that's in three hours. Yesterday they forced us to go all the way to Daehak-ro to watch this boring musical, I don't know why they think they're so cool for arranging things like this for us. Anyway, I'm watching Breaking Dawn part 2 because that's the only movie I haven't watched. After that I am going to karaoke with my friends and AFTER that I have to go to the academy to discuss my pay and my job and after thaaaaaaaaaaaat I need to go for training and I need to look like I'm sick. And somewhere in between I need to have lunch and dinner. THEN I'M FREE! My friend actually invited me to her open house party but I can't make it anymore, I have no place to squeeze that in.
This is a huge confession but sometimes I'm too tired to even erase my make-up. It's so gross, and I slept without taking my contact lens off a couple of times already.
Oh and two days ago, I dyed my hair to dark brown and I got light brown highlights, it looks awesome, so I'm happy. My friend forced me to dye it while she got hers permed so that she won't have to be alone and I'm really glad she did. Getting mine permed too in two weeks!
Congrats to those who got offers! There are lots of smarties in KL, oh and there's one in Indonesia too, Min Ji got offers from Durham and Warwick! So happy for her.
Just to show you how much of a big deal this KSAT is.
If you are lazy, read only the sentences in bold!
SEOUL -- One foggy morning last November, officer Kang Jin-jin heard the distress call on his police radio: An 18-year-old girl about to take the national college-entrance exam had left her admission ticket at home.
Mr. Kang dashed off to the girl's apartment, got the ticket from her father, and raced across town on his motorcycle, arriving at the school just in time for the test.
Oh Sang-min for The Wall Street Journal
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A mother prays to bring good luck to her child who'll take the college entrance exam Thursday.
"I had to ignore traffic signs and turn on the siren," he said. "It was a bit risky, but I tried my best."
Mr. Kang's heroic effort is hardly an isolated one. On the day each November that high-school seniors take the college-entrance test -- Nov. 13, this year -- South Korea is a changed country.
Many offices and the stock market open at 10 a.m., an hour later than usual, to keep the roads free for students on their way to the test. All other students get the day off to keep schools quiet for the test takers. And while students are taking the listening portions of the tests, planes can't land or take off at the nation's airports. Aircraft arriving from other countries are ordered to circle at altitudes above 10,000 feet.
Indeed, the college-entrance exam is a national obsession. More than 80% of South Korea's high-school seniors go on to college, and the test heavily influences which institution of higher learning they will be able to attend and -- after that -- their career track to jobs with big companies and the government.
Thursday, about 590,000 students will take the nine-hour test, which consists mostly of multiple-choice questions. Around 6 p.m., when the test is over, evening newspapers publish the questions and answers. Students who fare poorly can try again next year.
Businesses have sprung up to advise parents on how to help children prepare for the big day. Newspapers and TV shows broadcast tips on study habits and foods that supposedly increase concentration and boost memory. Some popular dietary habits are based more on superstition than nutrition. For instance: Avoid slimy seaweed soup. It may let success slip away.
In September, a Buddhist temple here in Seoul held a four-part seminar for parents of test takers, including a session by a priest who offered tips on concentration. Some temples -- and Christian churches -- invited parents to daily prayer sessions beginning in August, 100 days before the test. Parents who participate buy a special prayer book on which they glue a photo of their young scholar.
If all this sounds excessive, some college and government officials agree that it is. This year, the government gave money to 40 universities to hire admissions officers whose role more closely resembles those in Western countries, where standardized test scores are just one of many considerations in college-admissions decisions. "I think focusing too much on the one-day test should be changed," says Yu Myung-cheol, vice president for admissions at Kyungpook National University in Daegu.
But the introduction of the admissions officers, essays and other criteria to the college-entrance process brings subjectivity to a system that many Koreans consider objective and fair. South Korea strives to maintain equality throughout the educational system. Admission to private elementary schools, for instance, is determined by lottery.
"To many South Koreans, the admission tests are something that should always remain fair because education is the last fortress through which everyone, regardless of their current status, can ascend to a higher social status," said Choi Set-byol, a sociology professor at Ewha Womans University.
Indeed, South Korea's Education Ministry goes to extraordinary lengths to keep the national entrance test fair. Every year, it chooses about 400 teachers and professors to prepare and review questions, and it sequesters them all for weeks in a resort surrounded by police. Cellphones and Internet contact aren't allowed. What phone calls that are allowed are monitored. The brain trust can't leave until after the test is finished.
With the test preparers' sacrifice held out as an example, other South Koreans are quick to do their part to make sure the test goes smoothly.
Korea Electric Power Corp., the national utility, places about 4,000 crew members on standby for power emergencies. It checks every power line that goes to the roughly 1,000 test centers, and it dispatches at least one engineer to monitor each of these lines that day.
"We've got to do it because the people expect us to," says Yim Joo-hyuck, chief of the utility's distribution administration department. "It would be embarrassing if students blame us for failing their tests with power shortage."
![[Kim Nam-seon]](http://sg.wsj.net/public/resources/images/HC-GM998_Namseo_BV_20081111190611.gif)
KIM NAM-SEON
As exam day nears, nervous students say they are concentrating on just getting it over with. Kim Nam-mee, a high-school student in southern Seoul, spends her waking hours studying but is also making an effort to get seven hours of sleep. "What I need right now isn't so much studying but to maintain my best condition," says Ms. Kim. "I just think I should do my best at this test and get admitted," she adds. Ms. Kim's mother, meanwhile, shuttles her from home to cram-school, wears headphones when she watches TV so as to cut down on the noise, and prays at a Catholic church.
Other parents go even further. On a recent chilly Saturday evening, Kim Nam-seon joined more than 1,000 parents in an airy southern Seoul temple for an intense overnight praying session. Her mission was to bow 3,000 times, kneeling down with her forehead touching a red cushion on the ground to bring luck to her son, who attends a technical high school.
"I feel a little pain in my right knee now, but I think I'll finish it," said Ms. Kim, taking a break after the first 1,500 bows.
A few hours later, Ms. Kim emerged from her prayer session, her face covered with sweat from all the kneeling and bowing. "Personally, I don't think going to college is the ultimate goal of one's life," she said. "But it's hard to change social perceptions."
Unconditional
The obvious good thing about getting an unconditional offer is that the moment you get it everything is over. No more exams! I mean you can still sit for them if you want but it doesn't matter if you get a zero. Teachers don't scold you if you fail your quizzes and tests. They don't care anymore.
The bad thing (yes there is a bad thing) is that all your other friends are still studying like crazy and there is nothing to do! And you still have to go to school! 7:50AM till 4:00PM, just rotting in school.... I've tried reading, solving puzzles on my iPad, SLEEPING, writing crap in my diary, playing games on my phone and I've just ran out of things to do. I think I'm going to puke if I read another chapter of the Lord of the Rings part 2, don't even think I'm reading it properly. Well, I'm trying blogging now. But I can't do that forever. I'm so bored!
The big exam is on Thursday. KSAT! People go to work late (they have to), police are gonna be everywhere and stuff! I didn't understand what the big deal was last year but now I kind of get it. If my friends screw up this one exam, they need to resit NEXT year and go to uni NEXT NEXT year!
:/
Just now the school prefects came to give us our 'presents' and to wish us good luck on our exam. It's so weird feeling so...respected. This is what I hate about Korea. They're like ONE year younger than me but they bow and crap and call me Won Joo Oh sunbaenim (it's what you call your school seniors). It's so weird! And instead of annyeong they say annyeonghasaeyo. I don't know how to get you guys to feel me. Just imagine younger kids going good afternoon Miss angela or whatever your name is! Actually I don't think that was a good example, but you get my point! No? It kind of scares me and gives me goosebumps, at least stop the bowing! It's making me feel super uncomfortable.
But I kinda like the presents they gave us, sweets sweets and more sweeeeets! And mango juice!
I shall be back soon.
The bad thing (yes there is a bad thing) is that all your other friends are still studying like crazy and there is nothing to do! And you still have to go to school! 7:50AM till 4:00PM, just rotting in school.... I've tried reading, solving puzzles on my iPad, SLEEPING, writing crap in my diary, playing games on my phone and I've just ran out of things to do. I think I'm going to puke if I read another chapter of the Lord of the Rings part 2, don't even think I'm reading it properly. Well, I'm trying blogging now. But I can't do that forever. I'm so bored!
The big exam is on Thursday. KSAT! People go to work late (they have to), police are gonna be everywhere and stuff! I didn't understand what the big deal was last year but now I kind of get it. If my friends screw up this one exam, they need to resit NEXT year and go to uni NEXT NEXT year!
:/
Just now the school prefects came to give us our 'presents' and to wish us good luck on our exam. It's so weird feeling so...respected. This is what I hate about Korea. They're like ONE year younger than me but they bow and crap and call me Won Joo Oh sunbaenim (it's what you call your school seniors). It's so weird! And instead of annyeong they say annyeonghasaeyo. I don't know how to get you guys to feel me. Just imagine younger kids going good afternoon Miss angela or whatever your name is! Actually I don't think that was a good example, but you get my point! No? It kind of scares me and gives me goosebumps, at least stop the bowing! It's making me feel super uncomfortable.
But I kinda like the presents they gave us, sweets sweets and more sweeeeets! And mango juice!
I shall be back soon.
You fall and you crawl
Listening to Avril Lavigne's 'Let go' tracks, I think this is my favourite album.
MUST WATCH: 15& - Put it in a love song
15& singing 'Put it in a love song' by Alicia Keyes & Beyonce!
They're fifteen year olds!
They're fifteen year olds!
omg interview offer ommgggggg
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My friend was really upset today. She came to my class to talk to me about something that was bothering her, more like to bitch about the really annoying guys in her class. She was really down and it was obvious why she came to me, she wanted me to understand her and comfort her. And I realised, once again, how awful I am when it comes to consoling a friend. I always don't know what to say, and no matter how much I want to make them feel better, I just can't find the right words. I become extra careful in what I say because I don't want them to feel even more upset or anything. I put myself in their shoes and think about what I would want to hear. But that doesn't do much.
I ended up asking her if she's going straight home after school today.
She replied and went back to her class for her next lecture. I sat there in my seat and felt really bad for her and for myself. I felt stupid and worthless. I like to give advice to my friends when they need it, and I'm not that bad at that. But consoling is a completely different thing. I don't know whether I should say 'what's wrong?' when my friend is crying because I'm too scared that she might want to be left alone, who knows, she might not want to even talk about it. But then, I think it's also stupid to say 'It's okay' because obviously, it is not okay. I end up just standing next to her rubbing her back, waiting for her to stop crying.
I came back home and thought about this. I thought about the times when I was the one crying, complaining, just feeling upset. I think Mishy and Chengsters weren't that bad at comforting me, though Mishy did confess last time that she had to search 'how to console a friend on' google when I was crying on the phone. Hahaha. Well, I think for me, it didn't really matter what they said. It was nice to have them listen to my complaints and just nod their heads saying those 'I know's and 'forget about it's.
Then I thought, maybe I'm not a very good listener. Maybe I'm self-centered, not in the greedy or selfish way but maybe my desires are too fixed upon myself.
I care about myself too much, my wants and needs, my pride, my belongings, my thoughts, my EVERYTHING. I spent time thinking about why I was so bad at consoling my friend because it was my problem. I didn't think about what I could have said to her or what her problem really was. I don't think this necessarily means that I'm cold-hearted, because I honestly do feel bad when my friends are upset. But maybe, I need to improve on the whole listening thing, I need to be less self-centered. I've always thought that I cared about others because I care way too much when it comes to earthquakes and floods and it makes me feel horrible and I become desperate to donate my money, call phone numbers, pray and so on. I do care about the fact that half the world's population lives in poverty. I feel heart-broken when I see cancer patients. But I don't think I gave THAT much attention to those around me.
It really hit me today. I wonder why I haven't realised this earlier. This is why they say that sometimes taking a break and having deep thoughts about yourself and the present is the step before thinking about the future and having ambitious goals.
I like my music real loud real loud
You know, the kind of music I listen to nowadays is so different from...my old stuff. I was more into like pop ballad, acoustic styles and maybe R&B but now my favourite music genre is rap. YEAH. Strange! And don't get me wrong Chengsters! I still love guitar tunes and everything!
It's kind of weird but I've been listening to a lot of hip hop stuff. Ones with sick beats and everything, not the old hip hop stuff but yeah. And yeah, my favourite genre has got to be rap. :3
Please listen to this song:
It's really good but don't pay too much attention to the lyrics, don't search it up. Haha.
Love this!
It's kind of weird but I've been listening to a lot of hip hop stuff. Ones with sick beats and everything, not the old hip hop stuff but yeah. And yeah, my favourite genre has got to be rap. :3
Please listen to this song:
It's really good but don't pay too much attention to the lyrics, don't search it up. Haha.
Love this!
EXAMS EXAMS
I can finally relax! Had two essay exams yesterday...the first one went pretty well. But I bet at least 50 other people did well too so can't be sure that I'll be one of the 20 people who'll get the place. The second exam went REALLY REALLY horribly. The question was to do with robot ethics and how to solve their dilemmas, I was like....um, am I in the right room? This exam seems to be related to robot engineering NOT INTERNATIONAL FREAKING STUDIES! They gave us ONE hour to 'examine' ethical dilemmas that ROBOTS face AND come up with possible solutions to resolve them. I was like wtf wtf wtf the whole time, I wrote a bunch or crap so yeap, no chance that I'll get admitted.
I'M SO HAPPY THAT IT'S ALL OVER! Now I just need to wait for the results. AHHH. PLEASE CALL ME FOR INTERVIEWS PLEASE PLEASE PLEASEEEE.
One will announce the interview candidates next next next week? And the other one will give out acceptance/rejection letters soon! And as for the last one, I failed the exam so yeah hahaha.
GD's performance today with Sungha Jung was pretty awesome! Go go check it out!
I'M SO HAPPY THAT IT'S ALL OVER! Now I just need to wait for the results. AHHH. PLEASE CALL ME FOR INTERVIEWS PLEASE PLEASE PLEASEEEE.
One will announce the interview candidates next next next week? And the other one will give out acceptance/rejection letters soon! And as for the last one, I failed the exam so yeah hahaha.
GD's performance today with Sungha Jung was pretty awesome! Go go check it out!
Book + update
'Clare, I want to tell you, again, I love you. Our love has been the thread through the labyrinth, the net under the high-wire walker, the only real thing in this strange life of mine that I could ever trust. Tonight I feel that my love for you has more density in this world than I do, myself: as though it could linger on after me and surround you, keep you, hold you. ...Please, Clare. When I am dead. Stop waiting and be free. Of me - put me deep inside you and then go out in the world and live. Love the world and yourself in it, move through it as though it offers no resistance, as though the world is your natural element.'
I finished this book, 'The time traveler's wife' by Audrey Niffenegger two weeks ago. It took me so long to read it because I lost the book many times and I was busy doing other stuff. This book is definitely one of my favourites! A little embarrassed to say, but I cried towards the end because it was just so sad. I watched the movie so I knew the ending the whole time I was reading it but it was still really really sad! Strangely, I think the movie is almost as good as the book! Usually that's never the case but the film is one of my favourite movies so yeap. I think the author is amazing. I don't know how she did that. She structured it really nicely, I mean the whole time travelling thing is quite complicated but she managed to get me, the worst reader in the whole universe, understand what she really wanted to say! FIVE STARS!
So besides reading, I've been playing this game on my iPad for weeks! I think I'm addicted to it hahaha. It's called magic piano, well it's not really a game but it's so fun! And I'm pro ;)
And I have always tried to prepare myself for the big essay exam on Saturday. I have no idea what's going to come up, I just hope it's not going to be 'democratic consolidation' because I suck at that subject. I wish they told us the essay topics beforehand.....well I guess that's kind of a stupid thing to say hahaha. I'm just so curious! I've been studying a whole lot of things like women's rights, effectiveness of foreign aid, information revolution, land disputes in North East Asia, Japan's imperialism, multicultural families etc etc. And I'm scared that NONE of this is going to come out! Ahhh! I don't care if they don't come out in the exam, I just hope it's not going to be super deep stuff about political systems because I'm always so lost when it comes to politics. Hahahaha.
WISH ME LUCK! IT'S ON SATURDAY!
Stress
It's that stupid feeling again. Everything around you is moving so fast, and everyone seems like they know what they're doing. It's just crazy and hectic but you're in the middle of all this chaos, feeling lost.
In school, all my friends are busy with uni applications. I only chose my four universities today and I am not that confident that I will get admitted. If I get rejected by all four then I have to reapply next year which is definitely not what I want to do. I want to take a gap year but I need to get that acceptance notice first.
I am glad though that I am not alone in this. I talked to some of my friends today and they all feel the same. We were all like "I feel like I'm really unprepared compared to you guys". It was actually quite funny and I felt relieved. But I still think I need to fully prepare myself until the point where I'm like 'Okay I'm ready for this! Bring it on!'
Most of my the universities that I'm applying to look at the TOEFL scores. When I was studying for TOEFL, I didn't feel like it was important at all. I mean it's an English proficiency level exam, how hard can it be? I signed up. Took it. And got 108 out of 120. That's kind of like 8 out of 20 because most colleges in Korea do not even give the chance to apply to students with TOEFL scores that are less than 100. Hahaha. I said to myself, 'Now I know how the exam works so I can probably do better next time' and a month later I sat for the exam again and everything went just fine, I knew what I was doing. And my result? 108. Again.
It was kind of terrible. TOEFL is like SAT for me, it's like A levels because universities here choose students with good TOEFL scores. I had one more chance for this stupid shit and I decided to study like HELL for TOEFL. I had one and a half weeks until my next exam and I bought four books from the local book store. Two for reading, one for listening and one for speaking. I read them all at school and at home. Listened to the CDs, searched for tips, I did everything that I could!
Took the exam, felt a little down because I knew I got one wrong for reading. So I was kind of really sad and I didn't want to know the results. When they were out I was really really nervous to check them. My dad was right next to me when I was logging on the ETS website. I clicked 'results' and I thought I got 108 again because of the stupid 8 I saw. But it wasn't 108, it was 118.
God I was so happy! And a little teeny bit annoyed because it could have been 120. But still, I thanked God like a hundred times.
I think the reason why I got a high score in the end is because I was prepared.
Good preparation makes you feel so confident! And that is why I am pushing myself to write a bunch of essays (although most of them are tuition homework). But I feel like I'm so lazy these days. I don't do much at school. I go on freaking neopets at home. Someone needs to wake me up.
Why am I so lazy these days?
I decided to give myself a day to relax and forget about everything for awhile and that lasted a whole week. Deep sigh.
I think I should go and prepare for this. Everyone wish me luck with applications please, they start next week.
I have so many essays to write and I hate all the topics and crap. I don't even understand the question. Ahh, someone help me
Meeting up with Rachel tomorrow!
study, skype, sleep? nah.
Guess what! It's almost 5AM and I've been skyping with Mishy for three and a half hours! This isn't surprising...we were like this everyday...but this time we are studying!
Usually we're on neopets ahahha but today...I'm doing my international relations assignment and Mishy's doing her extended project. We're trying to help each other at the same time (Y)
This is why I like studying with a friend!
skyping with Mishy and she turned off her webcam and she's not speaking. she hasn't spoke since like two hours ago. I think she might be sleeping hahahaha I don't know what to doooo. I feel bad to just end the call....but I need to sleep so hahahaha. Really don't know what I should do. Maybe I should just turn off my camera and go to bed and she can end the call when she wakes up? (Y)
About blogging
My blog views are so high for some reason nowadays.
Is that because I'm blogging more often?
Now I'm just wondering why some people even bother to read my blog!
I started blogging since October 2009. And well I wanted it to be a fashion blog (hence the name, eatsomefashion) but it was a total failure. I think I made like THREE posts on fashion and the rest was just personal crap. I blogged for myself to look back later in life and yeah, blogging was cool at the time. Everyone had cool blogs and I wanted my own little blog too so yeah.
I'm really glad actually, sometimes I look back at the stupid posts and the videos I made and go 'omg yeah omg I remember this'. It feels nice. I think most people blog for that reason anyway.
Well after that, like ever since I started living here in Korea, my blogging style kinda changed. I feel like I blog for other people now as well! Still blog for myself but now it's just that other people are in the picture now. I had random people, people who I don't even know emailing me and asking me stuff. Well, they don't email me anymore after I took my email address down LOL but yeah it seemed so odd at the time. And actually one of them, I added to my msn - Shannon, I'm talking about you if you're still reading this. And that's when I realised, that my blog should not be so personal. So it got really boring and shit I know, I had people complain on my formspring about how my blog is getting a teeny bit boring and stuff. And how they like it to be more personal. And then I was like ah!
Now I don't know, I don't care. I'm not a professional blogger or anything. I don't even know what I'm talking about right now, I'm just killing time because everyone's still sleeping and I'm bored and I can't go to bed now it's 9AM and I have no idea on why I decided to write about this.
So yeah, my point is that hmm I don't even know if I have a point. I'm just writing crap. Okay ignore me.
Thank you for reading my stupid posts, thank you if they ever made you laugh or feel funny, funny? I meant happy. Or motivated. I love it when I hear that they do. :3
BYE!
Is that because I'm blogging more often?
Now I'm just wondering why some people even bother to read my blog!
I started blogging since October 2009. And well I wanted it to be a fashion blog (hence the name, eatsomefashion) but it was a total failure. I think I made like THREE posts on fashion and the rest was just personal crap. I blogged for myself to look back later in life and yeah, blogging was cool at the time. Everyone had cool blogs and I wanted my own little blog too so yeah.
I'm really glad actually, sometimes I look back at the stupid posts and the videos I made and go 'omg yeah omg I remember this'. It feels nice. I think most people blog for that reason anyway.
Well after that, like ever since I started living here in Korea, my blogging style kinda changed. I feel like I blog for other people now as well! Still blog for myself but now it's just that other people are in the picture now. I had random people, people who I don't even know emailing me and asking me stuff. Well, they don't email me anymore after I took my email address down LOL but yeah it seemed so odd at the time. And actually one of them, I added to my msn - Shannon, I'm talking about you if you're still reading this. And that's when I realised, that my blog should not be so personal. So it got really boring and shit I know, I had people complain on my formspring about how my blog is getting a teeny bit boring and stuff. And how they like it to be more personal. And then I was like ah!
Now I don't know, I don't care. I'm not a professional blogger or anything. I don't even know what I'm talking about right now, I'm just killing time because everyone's still sleeping and I'm bored and I can't go to bed now it's 9AM and I have no idea on why I decided to write about this.
So yeah, my point is that hmm I don't even know if I have a point. I'm just writing crap. Okay ignore me.
Thank you for reading my stupid posts, thank you if they ever made you laugh or feel funny, funny? I meant happy. Or motivated. I love it when I hear that they do. :3
BYE!
SO ITCHY
